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Sunday, May 20, 2007

this is random buti just realised that my blogger sucks cause it's the old one, whereby i cant change the colour of my words and all. :/ oh wells. never mind it.

anyways, i attened astronomy camp wit my peers. and i must say it was a fullfiling camp. all who had missed out, it's a pity. although it wasn't really that successful cause of the rain, which didnt allow us to go star gazing, but it was the time spent that count. it seemed like a helluva great fun knowing that you've got friends around and it was such a great feeling.

but of course, camp was fun and all. but the most irritating part was that i still had work to do. so that kinda sucked.

i'm feeling so heavy inside me. i dont know why.but so many things happened in my life and everything just flashes back into memory. and i start questioning.

what have i done to myself? what have i done to my family? what have i done to my friends?
all the drama, all the tears and all the pain. was it all worth it? was it necessary?

and after reading someone else's blog, it started to daunt on me, is it worth it for you? i dont know. i'm just so tired of your games. are you done yet?

aliLOVESyou

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

i dont know what is going on.. things just seem to be so wrong. nothing i do is right. everyone's mad at me. my emotions are all mixed up. what is going on? what is happening? why is it happening to me? i feel so heavy inside of me.. i hate this feeling. this couldnt be happening. why...? what have i done?

my world came crashing down.

aliLOVESyou

I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel shine,
Through the dark times even when I lose my mind.
But it feels like no one in the world is listenin',
And I can't ever seem to make the right decisions.
I walk around in the same haze, I'm still caught in my same ways.
I'm losing time in these strange days,
But somehow I always know the right things to say.

I don't know what time it is,
Or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes.

Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.

I'm still smiling as the day goes by,
And how come nobody ever knows the reasons why?
Bury it deep, so far that you can't see.
If your like me, who wears a broken heart on your sleeve,
Pains and struggles that you know so well,
Either time don't, it can't, or it just won't tell.
I'm not the type to say I told you so,
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.

I don't know what time it is,
Or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes.

Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.

And you can sing until there's no song left (song left)
And I can scream until the world goes deaf (goes deaf)
For every other word left unsaid,
You should've took the time to read the signs
And see what it meant (what it meant)
In some ways everybody feels alone,
So if the burden is mine then I can carry my own (carry my own)
If joy really comes in the morning time,
then I'm gonna sit back and wait until the next sunrise.

Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.

aliLOVESyou

Thursday, May 10, 2007

so i thought i'll post something since i haven't post one for awhile. lots have happened. my back, presentations, tests etc. wonder what else will come out. but in any case, school kinda suck cause of all these shit. but it's fun, thanks to the lovely class of mine, my day never fails to be rotten at all. (: all the cazy moments and all. FUN.

so my back's doing so much better now. but i have no idea to thank who. either the chinese doc or the english doc. and both told me different cases abt why my back had ached. so, i'm stuck wit a dilemma. BUT! who cares? HA.

today was MADNESS. i set the alarm on my phone at 7.15am thinking that sch was starting at 9 when it actually starts at 8! so i woke upat 7 plus and rushed like nothing pls. i even got a cab to school! the best part was that the taxi uncledidnt know how to drive to NYP. -.- and me being the blur one, i also didnt know! so i was like, saying ya to his every question. haha. like an idiot.
and the uncle was like saying me! as thou like i shd know my roads or sth. HELLO! who's driving here mann?if i had known, i would have told him right? ARGH. and i was the latest person to arrive for class pls.

i'm so damn tired. i dont feel like going to school! school's like shit. rahh. cant take it anymore.. kill me if possible. (:

aliLOVESyou