Wednesday, September 28, 2005
exams are next week. guess what? i haven t been studying at all. oh wells. gonna be so screwed for this final year. i ve been wondering why am i studying for? is it because i really want to study? or what? i dont know. i personally dont think that i m studying for myself. the society now is so different. everything you do, you need a degree. and if you dont, you just end up not married and jobless.
sometimes, i hate the way i act. i dont wana be like that. but i cant control my emotions. guess i m letting my emotions control me. oh wells. i feel stupid. knowing that in weeks, he can just be like that while i cant. i dont exactly like the fact that i m very emotionally attached to everything i have.
i wish i can move on to other things. my studies, my friends, everything. i just want it to be normal. lots of things went through my head. and i concluded that i am quite foolish. this love game we re playing is just too much.
i wana get out of this emotional thingy i have within me. i wana be the one who controls ME. not other things or factors.
i hope everything will go out fine.
i wish..........
aliLOVESyou
Saturday, September 10, 2005
One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
[Chorus]
You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Let me go
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
[Chorus]
You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows
[Chorus]
You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life
I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know
Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go
and you me but you dont
you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont know who I am
and you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont know me...
aliLOVESyou
Monday, September 05, 2005
officially single. after much cursing and swearing with him. i guess there re other much more impt stuff to think about./ i m trying to grow up and be mature about it. but if my emotions come and mess it again. then.... you might just wana avoid me. heh. yea.
well, lots have happened. even girlfriend has a boyfriend now. ((: good good. well darling, dont get so stressed over it. i love you! ((:
grades haven t been that great. gotta buck up. havent show my parents my results yet. well, not to deny, but i m scared to do so. all my fault for not studying. now, i m afraid to face the music. SUCKS PLS.
gotta work real real hard now. and no experts have come for my walk-in interview for amath?!?!?! where have all the experts gone to!?!?! SHIT.
anyway, prepared to fail amath again lar.. shit shit shit. SHIT.
aliLOVESyou
