youre the one i need

Friday, April 29, 2005

guess what?! i saw AARON AZIZ AND VINCENT NG downstairs my house! lols. so cool!! and vincent smiled at me.. so swweeettt. ((: smiles* haha right.. sorry, just being how an excited fan will be like. lols. (x

exams are near... SHIT. i m so dead for a.math lar.. can t do, can t grasp the formula blahhh.. screwed. and i have to pass the mid yrs. he said it is supposed to be the easiest paper. ah wells. not for me.

aliLOVESyou

Friday, April 22, 2005

back after a week. exams are round the corner. and guess what? i m not studying.. ya well, as usual. haii. i can t change my way of thinking! i wana study... but i m not doing it? stupid? yes. very. and my gosh.. it s so depressing. failed all 4 testes for amath. i m so screwed lar. SCREWED. oh wells. i can only blame myself. stupid me.
rights. i shall not carry on saying about such DEPRESSING crap. i ll talk about something else. ((:

hmmm.. had a chat with my mother on one of the days. think it was a monday or tuesday, one of the weekdays. ya. and it actually occured to me, about the topic, how this person is actually suffering behind the eyes of the others, even i was kept in the dark. i mean, dur, who will actually tell a kid what happened in her life?! plus i m not some err.. person that is... ya. you know what i mean? if you don t then.. it s okay.

STORY TIME!

wells, i ll just briefly tell the story..
her story is really sad.
her- in her 40s. married. 2 kids; 20 and 17.
her husband- complete fucking jerk. can just go and die. stupid bastard. an asshole, sorry. worse
than that. a total idiot! worse than that too!

he seldom comes back home. it s obvious why. his 2 children knows about him. so does his wife. he has been to almost the whole universe with that bitch. his wife, inside, her heart is shattered, hurt, betrayed by the man she once loved dearly. but she doesn t show it on her face. she keeps her emotions to herself. i mean, who knows if she crys herself to sleep at night? but anyway, there no point in crying for such a jerk.

before he knew the bitch, they were a happy family. the 4 of them would go to country after country almost every year. he was a father that existed in the children s life. he was a husband that existed in the wife s eyes. but now, it s as though like they don t have a father and a husband.

how sad is this? his wife has to do the housework, fetch the children to and fro from school, ns and wherever. and in return, this is what she gets. she is a great woman. and it s his greatest regret to have done this to her.

my heart goes out to her. she s a noble woman and deserves everyone s respect to her. so, the women out there, if you or whoever you know is going through this, be strong and move on. no point crying for these kinda jerks. take her as an example.

live strong.

spinning: she will be loved.

aliLOVESyou

Friday, April 15, 2005

yeah! it s a friday again!! happy happy, the weekends are here. 2.4 tml.. oh wells, hopefully i can run?! yea. ((:

nothing much to say also.. bleah.. enjoy the song then!

almost here

Did I hear you right? Cause I thought you said. Let's think it over. You have been my life. And I never planned. Growing old without you. Shadows bleeding through the light. Where the love once shined so bright. Came without a reason. Don't let go on us tonight. Love's not always black and white. Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you, You're almost here. And I know that's not enough. And when I'm with you. I'm close to tears. 'cause your only almost here.
I would change the world. If I had a chance. Oh won't you let me. Treat me like a child. Throw your arms around me. Oh please protect me. Bruise and battered by your words. Days are shattered, how it hurts. Oh, haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you. You're almost here. And I know that's not enough. And when I'm with you. I'm close to tears. 'cause your only almost here.
Bruise and battered by your words. Days are shattered, now it hurts. Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you. You're almost here. Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you. And when I hold you. You're almost here. Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted. And now I'm with you. I'm close to tears. Cause I know I'm almost here.

Only almost here.

aliLOVESyou

Sunday, April 10, 2005

haven t been updating anything in here. so, here i am! i m so bored at home noww.. what s there to do except studying? ah wells. that s MY boring life. there s nothing i can about it can i?
i suck in a math.. and the teacher don t even wana explain properly! no wonder i fail ALL 3 testes. not totally his fault anyways, mine too. i didn t practice. ah.. whatever. fail fail fail. i m so screwed..

blahhhh....

i miss 2/8 '05.

Almost

I almost got drunk at school at 14. Where I almost made out with the homecoming queen. Who almost went on to be miss texas. But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes. I almost dropped out to move to LA. Where I was almost famous for almost a day.

And I almost had you. But I guess that doesn't cut it. Almost loved you. I almost wished u would've loved me too.

I almost held up a grocery store. Where I almost did 5 years and then 7 more. Cuz I almost got popped for a fight with a thug. Cuz he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs. That I almost got hooked on cuz you ran away. And I wish I woulda had the nerve to ask you to stay.

And I almost had you. But I guess that doesn't cut it. Almost had you. And I didn't even know it. You kept me guessing and now I guess that I spent my time missing you. I almost wish you would've loved me too.

Here I go thinking about all the things I could've done. I'm gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton. I know we've had our problems I can't remember one.

I almost forgot to say something else. And if I cant fit it in I'll keep it all to myself. I almost wrote a song about you today. But I tore it all up and I threw it away.

And I almost had you. But I guess that doesn't cut it. Almost had you. And I didn't even know it. You kept me guessing and now I guess that I spent my time missing you. And I almost had you.

I almost wish you would've loved me too.

aliLOVESyou

Friday, April 01, 2005

righttss. i m back again. just had sports day yesterday.. and it rained and it rained and it rained!! ah wells. and everything was disguisting. hate it when it rains and we re all at outdoors. everything just seems so disguisting. right. sad thing was cheer leading competition couldn t be held.
nothing much to say. i m bored... well, ciao now.

aliLOVESyou