Friday, July 30, 2004
talk to me
Every night I hear you cry
Don't you wanna tell me why
I'm afraid the way cannot without you
Maybe I misunderstand
But when I reach and touch your hand
I can't feel you anymore
You seem a million miles away from me tonight
Baby but I'm right beside you
Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see
Those tears in your eyes
I'll do anything it takes to make it right
Baby,
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say good-bye
Wherever so hard to say
Whatever makes you turn away
Can't be any words that I imagine
You gotta tell me what you need from me
To hold you close or set you free
Cause I just wanna see your smile again
But I can't help you if you keep me in the dark
Open up your breaking heart and
Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see
Those tears in your eyes
I'll do anything it takes to make it right
Baby,
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say good-bye
I don't know how to ease the pain you're going through
Baby, tell me what to
Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see
Those tears in your eyes
I'll do anything its takes you make it right
Should I hold you close or set you free to fly?
Baby
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say good-bye...
aliLOVESyou
Thursday, July 29, 2004
okay.. i ve no idea what to post actually. sighh- math s CA gonna be so dammit difficult. oh well. no matter how hard it is, i m gonna strive through. ((: yea baby!! that s the spirit! yupps. had training yesterday. had to do this thing called steps, where we have to climb up the stairs by jumping on the steps up. damn scary. my heart was pounding hard and fast. after which, we had water break, following by a short game, to train ourselves for the netball carnival coming real real soon.... next month. and my poor poor tall teacher(jazreel), was unwell while training. had low blood pressure cause she didn t eat lunch. tall teacher!! you better get something to eat every time before training kaes?! seriously speaking, you scared the wits outta me yesterday. looked really pale. take care yea darling?
alright.. ran outta topic to write about.. sian lars. weather forecast: looks like it s gonna rain. windy day. no need for fan or air-con. damn!! was trying to get the pics for the blardy fucking shit geog assignment, but i can t open it?!?!? was thinking of using one of the pictures we took when we went jakarta and see the waterfall. but i can t open the damn thing!!! frustrated. kana sai. oh wells, nothing much to say. so i guess thats all. ciao.
Cradled
I will rock you like a baby, I will,
Cradled in my arms,
I will keep you safe from danger,
Shelter you from harm...
There will never be another lover,
Who treats you like I do,
We can drift into forever,
On a love thats made for two...
Dont you ever say this loves not special,
Dont you ever think its not essential...
Baby...I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...I am always dreamin of you,
Hopin you are dreamin of me,
I could never live,One day without your love...
I will kiss you like an angel, baby,
Cradled in my wings,
I will take you up to heaven,
Show you precious things...
If you promise that you love me,
If you promise that you care,
I will be here for you always,And forever this I swear...
Dont you ever say this loves not special,
Dont you ever think its not essential...
Baby...I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,Agaisnt the world...
Baby...I am always dreamin of you,
Hopin you are dreamin of me,
I could never live one day,Without your love...
Though you say you want a love,
But you dont think you believe it,
Just open up your heart,
And you know you will recieve it...Oh baby
Baby...Dont you ever say this loves not special,
ohDont you ever think its not essential...
Baby...I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,Agaisnt the world...
Baby...I was only dreamin of you,
Hopin you were dreamin of me,
I could never live one day,
Without your love...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
i was only, i was only, i was only thinkin... oh baby
baby i love you*
aliLOVESyou
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Without You(feat. Clay Aiken)
Never even thought to cry.
When I heard you say goodbye.
Never said where you were going.
theres no laughter in the air.
Only silence everywhere.
And so much left unspoken.
Since you've been gone.
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could see.
Who's to blame.
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
And no love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life?
Without you
was I lost in you and me
To the point I couldn't see
that what we had was dying
Now it's all that I can do
To see photographs of you
And stop myself from crying
I tried to live without your love
Got so many memories
But it's not enough
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
And no love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?
I feel helpless and oh so alone
Like I never felt before
you made me feel alive
but I don't remember what it's like anymore
Without you, where do I belong?
without you, how can i go on?
And no love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?
without you, where do i belong?(where do i belong)
without you, how can i go on?
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life,
Without you?
oh baby
where do i belong(without you)
please tell me how can i go on
aliLOVESyou
Saturday, July 24, 2004
well rhian. your attitude don t show me that you care. and you dare said you didn t scold me after the other time when i pissed you off?! i went to read it alright. damn you, go and check your archives. and you yourself said that you suck and all. i didn t call you a fucking slut, so stop accusing me of that. you yourself know where you have changed or what needs to be changed. you gave yourself the answer. you said that 'i agree that im always saying things without thinking,' then since you know that, go and change it. what s the point of saying yourself suck and all are your fault? nothing s gonna change! and how do you know that we hate you? did we say like, ' eh rhian. you know what? i hate you.' hell we didn t do that okay! so again, stop assuming things. we didn t say that we hate you. we just don t like some factors about you.
you wanna know what i don t like abt you? i give it to you. your attitude sucks. i hate that attitude of yours. and of course some other factors in your character which you should know what is it. look, different people have different views and areas which they don t like about you. same, different people have different factors of not liking me. i repeat myself no one wants you to be miss prefect alright!! sick and tired of telling you over and over again. and i don t like it when you assume things and actually it s of another reason or what-so-ever. and i don t like it when you keep going gaga over guys and changing one after another and that stupid squeak of yours when your love s name is being mentioned. why can t you just like smile and blush or anything? why must have that sound effect of yours?! gives me the creeps.
i ve said what i don t like about you. must be fuming right?! see, even if we don t tell you you re angry. even if we tell you, you re also angry. what s the point? accept it graciously when one tells you where one don t like about you and change it. who knows, when that same thing happen again and you use the same attitude, what will the person think? always think about what others will think about you when you do something. i will accept it graciously when someone tells me where they don t like about me. i ll even say thank you to the person.
i ve said what i want to say. say whatever you want. assume whatever you want to also. if it doesn t get into your head, then i ve wasted my time.
aliLOVESyou
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
"well ya i mean wat can u expect from a useless no good fucking son of a bitch rite alicia?"
well rhian, if that s what blardy hell you think, and that i m referring it to you, then it s not my problem alright?! cause hell you, i m not referring it to you. and what? you want us to tell you where you have changed, well all i can say is, so what if we told you?! like you fucking hell care! pls don t forget what you told me when i said you were flirtaous. go and think back what the fuck you said to me. you told me not to control your life. fine. you said that wanting to change overnight is impossible. fine. and you fucking don t care what others think of you. now what? you do now? if you really did care, you would have changed that 'flirtaous' of yours and make it no longer exist in your character. you said you tried. but have you? maybe you said ya. i did. but to me, it didn t. it still shows.
fuck you, nobody wanted you to be perfect. no one is perfect. not even me. and don t 'what kinda friends are you guys' me okay..in the past, i did tell you. i tried to advise to you. as a friend i did that. but hell did you appreciate it?! damn you no. so what s the point rhian? what s the fucking point of telling you again and then come back and scold me on your blog?! what for? get scolded when all you wanna do is help? that s totally stupid. and no one said that you were useless okay? you said it yourself. and no one is blaming you for anything, you said it yourself. so, don t put words in people s mouth.
i know it s a sore eye to read this, but go and think about it. it s not that we don t wanna help you, you don t want us to. so, i ve said my peace. hate me for all i care, dislike me for all i care. there s so much i can do, the rest is up to you. if you wana change for the better, go ahead. no one is stopping you. but if you still can t get the picture, all i can say is all the best to you.
aliLOVESyou
Saturday, July 17, 2004
okay... stupid blogger!! even changed the font for me... oh wells. nvm. hehe. ((: happy happy!!! haha. at last, i turn 14 today! happy birthday to me! *smiles* relatives coming to my house today for dinner. happy happy. maybe going orchard later.. maybe....... yuppers!! hahas. feeling kinda hyper and happy. alrightie.. shall not say ne more. just feeling happy. ((: smile everybody, it ll make your day bright when if it s dark in the night. ((:
aliLOVESyou
Friday, July 16, 2004
okay. blogger changed everything again. alright. never mind. (:
i wana thank everybody and all those who got a something, which you all didn t need to. mother said she wanted to bring something down to school during recess to give you all. but she didn t cause of rushing-ness. uh huh. sorry peeps. but i m really really touched with all the gifts and words that you all gave me. ((: was smiling to myself when was reading those words written by all of yer. just so touched i don t know what to say. totally speechless, at the same time... touched. lols. okay, said that word over and over again. what to do, that s how exactally i feel. ((: touched. *smiles to myself*
kk.. brother needs to use liaos. do his homeworkie!! once again, thanks for everything thing!!!! loveem' !! ciao.
*smiling in my dreams....~*
aliLOVESyou
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
woohoo! had netball training today. kinda tiring.. did circuit training. but on the other hand, fun! but... on the other hand, body aching like hell... dammit! sighh- kinda sad that the sec 4s are going to stop training soon.. gonna miss them! esp. sheryl baey... hahas. be happy i m gonna miss yer kaes!!! and of couse the other sec 4s, who brought joy and fun in the trainings. ((: yupps. before i go and let my brother do his project, i wana thank the netballers, seniors and all, for welcoming me into the family!! ((: ciao!
aliLOVESyou
Saturday, July 10, 2004
it s been terrible days for me.math is driving my nuts. everyday having math. i don t mind doing math cause i enjoy the subject but not when the teacher is thinking that only her subject is very very important. been so tired. supposed to go for tuition but thought that maybe my own math teacher is good enough already. yup. having this major headache. just wana go and sleep.. but then, i also don t want to do that. sigh- the house is so quiet now. only my mother and i are at home. sian.
went town yesterday with sheryl*mummy and emili. went there to buy present for.. someone. saw this necklace on the lime mag, so thought maybe shd get that for her. share the cost of the pressie. went to take neos. but left far east hurriedly cause mummy told her father to fetch her at 4. went home and about 6 plus, left house to my aunt s house for bbq at her condo; the golden hill. saw my cousins there but didn t really or rather didn t even talk to each other at all. not very close to my father s side. so, we re sort of like strangers. didn t really do much there. but certainly enjoyed the breeze. stayed till about 10 plus and came home. watched a tiny winy bit of nip tuck yesterday. wanted to watched, before my father came and switched to other channels. lazy to go to my parent s room to watch. went back to my room read a book while in the midst of dozing off. therefore i went to sleep and that ends off my day. nothing much to do now..online and all. getting bored. bored. bored.... SIAN!! neways, nothing much to type to say.. i guess that s all. ciao.
aliLOVESyou
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
whooshh!! back at last to use the laptop!! i missed it so. changed blog song again. thought it was kinda nice. ((: would wana use 'more than words', but my beloved grandmama use liao. so... never mind. ((: school s okay, i guess. been so guai nowadays. doing my work. smiles* haha. ya, all last mintue work that is. math s great and don t know why i m simply lovin' it like hell. and i mean it. loving math ever it came to sec 1, then did it really hit me that it was actually fun.
having netball training tomorrow! excited excited. at last having training. ((: been long long long since i ve made shout outs. since there s nothing to do, i shall do it then. :x
thomasina:: heya babe! thks for being there for me whenever i needed u. you were there to support me and listen to me. grateful for that. (: always lending a shoulder to cry on. am happy to have known you and being my friend. thanks for everything and i love you lotsa!! take care sweets!
germaine*jie:: hey prettaye!! thank you for bringing fun, wild, cheerful moments in my life. am grateful to have you as my friend. for being such a great listener and gossiper. haha. for being such a sweet girl, and moments which are unforgettable. great to have known you and i live with no regrets. lols. i love you germaine.
dianne*mei:: elos my beloved mei!! pleasure knowing you when you came to our class last year. rmb everybody trying to get you in their groups, when a group work is being called upon. haha. were trying to win yer favour. thanks for bringing joy and laughter in my life and having to meet a new friend like you. totally different from other friends that i ve known. very straight forward person. but guess that s one point that makes u special. ((: good luck in everything that you do! and take care lotss. i love ya.
sam chui*grandmama:: hiee grandma!! love you to bitss!! known you since we re primary 1. been in the same class for almost 8 years. we grew up together through our schooling years. grateful to have known you and to have been friends with you. i ve seen you cry and so have you. shared through moment after moment, be it happy or sad. had crappy times and lousy times. am glad u re always there for me. ((: never ever forgetting you. lotsa love from yours truly.
rhian:: heyy! were close to each other when we were primary 5 and 6, if i don t rmb wrongly. but then, when secondary school starts, we started drifting. kinda sad but i understand why, new friends mean a start of a new friendship with another. of couse you will be closer to the other ones. knew i said real things that i sorta hurt u in the earlier year. but i just want you to know that i m not trying to control your life or just wana nag at u. as a friend, i meant well. i just don t want you to get in all sorts of knots. i hope you understand. (: lotsa love! take care. all the best!
jas*kor:: elos!! i have to thank you the most, for listening to my nonsense and crap. (: truely greatful to have known you and to be my friend. i don t know how to thank you through words cause you ve done more than your part. but anyhow, i really appreciate and thank you lots. ((: thanks for being there for me. love ya babe!
jackson:: hey jacko!! have to really thank you too. teaching me math! lols. though we don t really communicate to each other due to busy-ness, really wana thank you for listening to my complains and all. ((: must have been hard on you huh? hehe. thanks for always being so optimistic while i was complaining and complaining how bad life was and all. you brought light in my life. (: well, take care lotss dude! cheero!
last but not the least,
ian:: hey babe! i thank you for your time, your concern and of course, you. thanks for sparing time for me, with me though you re always busy with your stuffs. ((: really really appreciated it. will always rmb the happy moments i shared with you and not forgetting the bad ones too. always linger in my head. sorry for bringing you lotsa trouble and all. am real sorry for that. on the other hand, am happy that you ve found the one that you re going to share your life with. (: well, take care lots and all the best in all! i love yer baby.
sorry to all those that i didn t mention here to individually. but all of you have a place in my heart. (: all are fantastic in a way or another. am always greatful to have known you all and being my friends. without all of you guys, i wouldn t be what i am today. ((: thank you all for that yea?! take care all and gd luck.
this song is dedicated to everyone. it s all how i feel and wana say to you all. (: smile-
"More Than Words"
Saying I love you,
Is not the words,
I want to hear from you,
It's not that I don't want you,
Not to say but if you only knew,
How easy,
it would be to show me how you feel,
More than words,
is all you have to do,
to make it real,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,
What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,
More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say,
if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,
Just by saying I love you,
It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,
It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,
Now that I've tried to,
talk to you and make you understand,
All you have to do,
is close your eyes,
And just reach out your hands,
and touch me,
Hold me close don't ever let me go,
More than words,
is all I ever needed you to show,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,
What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,
More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say,
if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,(no no)
Just by saying I love you.....
aliLOVESyou
Thursday, July 01, 2004
crazy mmmmeeee!! but whatever. changed myblog song agains!! tee hee. now, i love this song. frickle minded alicia. ((: did nothing much today in school. but it was kinda slack. ms chye didn t come to school, mr chan didn t really conduct lessons. only had one period of math, no science period. chinese was okay. art.. neh. yupps. that s why so slack. lols. cousin s in my house now. the 3 yr old kido. shermin wong. creating some weird sounds from her mouth at the moment. and there she goes again. looking at me like i m some alien. and talking to me with her nonsense. lols. trying to get my attention to play or talk to her. uh huh. too bad, i m kinda ignoring her so she plays with her 'ni tu'. oh wells. she s still a kid. now, she s talking in her own language which i will never, ever understand.yes, and she s peeking to see what i m typing. but, she ll never know what the hell i m typing. mahahaha!! evil grins- well, nothing much i really wana say. just came for the sick of bloging and use the laptop for a while.
life s a helluva crap. confused emotions running through me. some things which came back to set me thinking, wondering again. blardy fucking hell.. can t get rid of them somehow... somehow. wish that it can set me free from all this crap hell. ciao.
aliLOVESyou
