Friday, October 31, 2003
... +sighz+ wtf.. i failed 3 bloody subz..lit, history n sci.. man, i hate sci!!! bloody hell lorz.. got a 49 fer it.. kaoz~ o ya.. i typed wrongly fer maths marks.. shd b 56.. not 57.. been feelin so damn dwn.. oso dunno y.. the old feelin come bak again i guess.. +sighz+ which is, noe tt im troubled but dun noe wads the prob.. fuck fuck fuck!!!! *no offence* jus so...... so.. dunno... mixed feelings.. i guess.... +haiz+
yst wen to watch tis korean movie:" my teacher, mr kim".. tot was gg to b boring.. but turned out to b funni n sad.. so sad tt my frenz n i cried.. +sobx+ aft tt, wen to macs fer com meetin abt tis claz party tingy tt the com wanted to do fer the claz.. sum wen hm 1st.. but the ones hu stayed dere later, left tt abt 4 sth jus fer tt stupid ting... which turned out to b a total flunk..
the nxt morning, we discussed it wif the claz abt the venues cuz dun wan to cause ani disagreements.. but were uncooperative n the ting was cancelled... fuck la.. at 1st i had 'high' hopes tt we'll suceed.. i mean.. of cuz rit.. mus haf confidence in our claz ma.. but den, it turned out lyk tt... +haiz+ nvm.. we're doin it fer dem.. so tt we can haf lyk claz spirit.. cuz other classes r sayin tt 1/8 doesnt haf tt n blahz.. n oso we'll b in the same claz nxt year.. most likely.. den if oreadi the 1st year lyk tt, how can we carry on to nxt year?! i wonder if we'll turn out lyk tt again nxt year.. *fingers crossed*
was suppose to go out fer dnr.. but din wan to.. onli make mi feel more sad n unimportant.. +haiz+ anws, itz my bros b'dae todae, although he cant get to read tis cuz he dun noe my bloggy, happy birthday de ge! *n the crowd sings the b'dae song*
itz a long entry todae... 1 more minute to 10 o'clock... oh.. dey come bak frm dnr liaoz... speak of the devil... last dae of skool.. sounds so sad n hard to sae gd bye, although we'll meet again on nov 5 fer our resultz*fingers crossed*, but lyk feel so hard to jus say bye n meet again nxt year... +sighz+ ok, i oso dunno wad im tokin abt.. so ya...
wad a dae i've spent... +sighz+ lyk been cryin more recently... todae oso cry.. yst cry cuz of movie( ok not counted)... all in all, life sux.... n my daes sux even more! +haiz+ haf nth much to write liaoz.. so i guess, later....
p.s ( no offence to the ' f ' words.. jus feel so suckie todae... so ya.. anws, haf a gd dae n enjoy ya hols.. )
aliLOVESyou
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
+haiz+ got bak papers todae... so lousy sia..
maths: 57/100
lit:(kaoz) 35/75
eng:58/110~tis one oso lyk shit..
+sighz+ another 2.5 more marks n i can pass lit.. wad to do.. lit is always a subject tt i'll fail.. ok, not always la but still.. +sighz+
got our bk list todae.... alex haf to retain sec 3 nxt year.. +sighz+ rhian lyk..ermz.. so ermz.. sad... i mean wen i heard tt he has to retain, i felt surprised too la.. but lyk wen u hear sum one has to retain u feel so sad fer dem... rit? tts how i feel la..
hmm... did nth much todae.. onli check papers tts all... some more sit at the hall fer lyk so mani hours.. kaoz~ was so slpy.. sit dere until my ass pain manz... +sighz+
one last paper to go... +sighz+ wonder how i'll fare... i haf no confidence in tis paper cuz its science... +haiz+ wad to do... c how it goes... hope i'll do ok...
anws, gtg le.. so, later...
aliLOVESyou
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
ok.. todae was a sianx dae.. had nth to do.. +sighz+ wellz, anws, had tis retreat tingy in sch... father michael n uncle treavor came n lyk ermz... did sth wif us...? we sang songs n played games.. kinda fun la..
nv get bak ani paper todaee... but gettin bak maths, lit n eng tml.. wonder how i'll do.. gd or bad...? hope i'll do gd.. *fingers crossed*
jus finished lickin my lollipop.. hahas.. wadeva larz.... mi got nth to typee liaoz.. so i guess.. later!
aliLOVESyou
Monday, October 27, 2003
got bak my results todae.. haiz.. was..... ok done.. i guess...
d&t: 53. sth/100
chinese:56/100
history:(omg!!)45/100
haiz.. failed history.. manz.. dunno wad other subjects i'll fail.. some more the markz here lyk shit lyk tt... +sighz+ dun make mi fail pls... haiz... feelin so dwn... wtf.. the stupid blog got prob i tink.. or mayb my com... everyting is against mi.. but y mi..? m i tt gd to b played wif or wad..? +sighz+
i slept fer lyk.. 3 hrs todaee....? oso noe y but so damn tired.. *yawnz* i feel so xtra.. in wad, at wad... i dunno.. jus feel xtra.. mayb its beta wifout mi here.. ok wadeva.. im tokin crap..
no mood to type aniting... so i guess.. later....
aliLOVESyou
Sunday, October 26, 2003
wen to geradine's hse yst for tis so-called party... onli mi n shuyi wen n lyk we were so xtra cuz the others were her anderson frenz.. but in the end, we made frenz wif dem.. dey were quite friendly la.. esp. sophia.. was the 1st one to smile at us n offered chips.. so nice..
shuyi wen bak earlier den mi cuz her mum came earlier den mine.. oh ya.. n the prawns was omg... damn delicious lo!!! kaoz~ n the fried wanton was fab.. *mouth watering*
its oreadi 2 sth in the dae n lyk feelin so bloody sianx!!!! nth to do.. summore gg to 3 o'clock le... 10 more minutes... 9 more.. 8 more.. okok, i'll stop countin dwn.. but realli.. so sianz...
kk.. wadeva.. nth much to type le.. so i guess.. later..
aliLOVESyou
Friday, October 24, 2003
wen to my grandma's todae.. my aunt n cousins were dere oso.. din do much.. brought a storybk to read.. was feelin damn tired n doze off while in the rm.. ah.. so comfortable.. cuz air-con on.. slept for lyk abt.. 2-3 hours.. but now still feel so tired.. +sighz+ gg to geradine's hse tml for tis party she holdin... hope vanessa can go oso, so tt i wun b tokin to myself.. hahas.. wadeva..
although xamz r ova, mi feel so sianz.. haiz.. nth to do at hm.. i hope can haf activities
lyk the camp discovery tingy we had.. so fun!!
dunno wad to type sia... so i guess.. tts all.. later..
aliLOVESyou
Thursday, October 23, 2003
was a fun dae todae.. had tis camp discovery tingy.. tot it was gg to b sian but den aft attendin it.. found tt it was kinda fun.. heez..was in sch hafin a sch in ting.. the 'speaker', tim, gaf us sum erm.. tingy to play.. lyk he was sellin $2 for 20 cents.. hmm.. how to sae.. put it tis way.. its sum game tt needs our brain to tink.. i guess.. oh wadeva.. cuz tt one was the sian one.. the fun one is later on...
aft our break, we had a intro to the instructors.. tim asked dem to do sth which will make us feel tt dey r committed to the activity.. so, alyssa suggested tt dey go a cat walk.. dey were actin stupid makin the ppl in the rm lol.. was kinda kool though.. aft which we had to b in grps of 13.. gif our grp a name, choosin of leader blah.. we had a wksht to do.. section 1 was answerin of questions while section 2,3 was to find itemz... my grp leader was.. me... but i din do a gd job though.. each grp had a instructor.. our grp had keat a.k.a. kor.. cuz i din noe how to pronouce his name at 1st so i suggested tt i called him kor... hes nice n kinda funni though.. we came to my hse 1st to get the stuff tt we wanted for section 3.. n sped out of my hse to tpc.. to get the other stuffz..
ah... nv had such a fun dae in my life.. i erm.. guess... at least not lyk yst n mon.. *puke* wen we're abt to leave, we got kor's contact... got his hp number n email addy.. jus to keep in contact.. :)
nv had so much fun frm the dae skool started.. hahas.. anws, tts the end of the outing.. but not everyting is stated here la.. haf to shorten it ma.. wanna noe the details..? call mi ya.. so i guess... later! god bless ya ppl! +muackz+
aliLOVESyou
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
sianz.. wen to the URA for tis gallery visit.. kaoz~ was so bloody sian... wen to watch tis video at tis place.. den had to do tis freakin wksht which everyone dun wanna do.. haiz.. but still gotta do it.. waste paper onli... wadeva.. onli lyked the little buildings tt were being made by dem.. haha..
wonder hu has the leann rimes song.. can send to mi.. kinda lyk tt song.. which is 'but i do love u'.. im sure everyone has 4gotten abt tis song lyk i did.. rmb it wen i watched coyote ugly again.. the song damn nice lo... but i dun haf... sobx..
been feelin kinda depressed lately.. oso dun noe y.. +sighz+ lyk i said tis feelin sux.. to noe tt ur troubled but u dun noe wad the problem is.. y mus i go thru tis feelin..
jus spare it frm me... will it... sighz..
anws, i haf to go.. my bro is waitin to use the internet to do his work liaoz.. later..
aliLOVESyou
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
LEANN RIMES
"But I Do Love You"
I don't like to be alone at night
And I don't like to hear I'm wrong when I'm right
And I don't like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you
But I do love you
I don't like to see the sky painted grey
And I don't like when, nothin's goin my way
And I don't like to be the one with the blues
But I do love you
But I do love you
I love everything about the way your lovin me
The way you lay your head upon shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do, oh I do-o
And I don't like to turn the radio on
Just to find I missed my favorite song
And I don't like to be the last with the news
But I do love you
But I do love you
I love everything about the way your lovin me
The way you lay your head upon shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do, oh I do
And I don't like to be alone at night
And I don't like to hear I'm wrong when I'm right
And I don't like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you
But I do love you
But I do love you
But I do love you
aliLOVESyou
Sunday, October 19, 2003
jus came bak not long frm park mall.. wen to john little 1st to buy sum gal stuffz.. lol.. aft tt wen to park mall to fetch my uncle... b4 tt wen hans to eat.. wen to pick my uncle up n came hm liaoz.. yay!! at last bought wad i haf been wantin to buy... at last manz.. aft lyk abt... 1 or 2 mths later..? haha...
wadeva la.. got nth to type liaoz... so damn tired.. byee... later
aliLOVESyou
Saturday, October 18, 2003
saturdae again.. boring... damn boring sia.. xamz r ova but deres nth to do!!! +sighz+
sum more later gg to my granny's hse for dnr... haiya.. waste my time onli.. haiz..
i gtg le.. go n bathe den ask my auntie to send us dere... so i guess.. later..
aliLOVESyou
Friday, October 17, 2003
chinese xam ova liaoz.. yay! but deres still a d&t on mon.. *sighz* but so wad if xamz r ova..? i cant even go out!!! kaoz~ wtf.. stewpid mother... *haiz* dun lyk her at all.. wads her bloody freakin problem??? shes such a fucker... n she sux to the max!!! dun no y but i jus hate her so much.. dun understand y she wans mi at hm tt much... fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!! im highly angry n not please wif her fuckin behaviour... y cant she jus get her ass off mi????? cant she go n ass my brothers or sth?? idert...
i so not agree wif the song stacey's mum.... my mum sux.. *sigh* i wanna live wen im happi or wad, i wanna die wen im sad n stuffz... y cant i live in a family where i can haf more freedom.. jus a little.. i dun ask for more.. jus allow mi to go out wif my frendz can le... y cant she c tt pt..??? wen i go on the com, she tinkz i tok to guyz.. ya i do but not onli dem wad.. haiz.. the person tinkz im a despo or sth.. fuck la.. if tts wad she wanna tink, den fine lo.. wadeva.. cant b bothered wif her..
so sianz todae at hm.. so i wrote a lame poem to keep myself occupied... here goes nth.. btw, it makes no sense..
tell mi wad to do,
i am so confused.
to love or not to love,
its not such a big deal.
tell mi wad to do,
i am so misused.
u took mi for granted,
n i took u for dirt.
tell mi wad to do,
i am so stressed.
xamz, xamz, xamz,
r such a pain in the ass.
tell mi wad to do,
i am so lost.
shd i sae i love u?
i love u, i love u, i love u!
ok...... its a lame poem.. to tink i could come up wif tis.. shows u how lame i m.. so ya.. anws, i type a beta one... i kinda lyk it... deres so mani nice ones.. but i'll jus type tis one...
forgive
4gif the sun hu din shine
the sky had asked her to dine
4gif the stars tt heard ur wish
the moon prepared their favorite dish
4gif the rain for its attack
the clouds haf tears dey cant hold bak
dun hate the birds' cause dey r free
dun envy all the tings dey c
dun block the wing, but hear its cry
or else tt wind may pass u by
4gif the storm it means no harm
could it resist to show its charm
4gif the earth tt nv turns
dun hate the sun, bcuz too much burns
life intends to not causepain
the flowersbloom frm all the rain
the storm will come n it will pass
th sun tt shines, it grows the grass
the wind it cannot help but cry
the stars at nite light the sky
4gif th eworld in which we live
we'll all find peace if we forgive
nice rit..? to mi it is though.. anws, gtg liaoz.. mother naggin away n away.... *sighz* later..
aliLOVESyou
Thursday, October 16, 2003
maths xam todaee.. kaoz~ lost 13 marks for paper 1!!! haiz.. but it was difficult lo.. *sighz* but luckily paper 2 still ok... i din do a 2 mark question.. *sighz* dun noe how to do... but got sum others which i oso dun noe how but at least got try... *sigh* pls dun make mi fail... i dun wanna fail................ sobx...
ok.... wen to mos wif thoma, calli... to study chinese... calli wen toilet in the middle of it n she disappeared for abt half an hour... kao la she.. mus b go comb her hair.. nice nice... blah blah blah all tt shit..
met jeslyn, roberts(joanna) n jes frendz outside mos.. den wen to the cc dwnstairs my hse to study.. but calli couldnt concentrate cuz petrina was dere.. n was tokin abt her all the way... sighz.. *shakes head*
anws, vr late le.. sum more tml got chi xamz... so ya.. gtg! later.. gdy luck ppl!
aliLOVESyou
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
wtf... jus on the com n kana scoldin sia.. idiot la.. i mean at least i studies jus now rit.. *sighz* so wad if i did..? she oso wun believe tt i did study den.. haiz.. m i tt untrustable...? *shakes head* crap la..
well anws, had a great time todae.. aft maths lesson, wen to study at mac's n of cuz fer lunch oso la... wen wif mel mel, thoma n adriel kor.. aft tt, cornie, sk, calli, grace, vanessa lim, sara... *tinkin tinkin* did i miss anione out...? ok, if i did im sori ar.. heez.. anws, ermz... since we were bored n din wanna do maths le, we wen to xplore tpc.. lol.. bought bubble tea n ermz.. walk sum more... den, wen to my tuition centre to pay my nxt year's tuition fees.. aft tt, saw the gers at mos.. calli came out n tel mi tt my mum n bro wen mos to eat, saw dem n sum more ask dem ques lyk, where m i? n blah blah blah... so.. ya...
in the end, wen in to mos n study dere.. since everyone was in dere... later, song lei, bryant, yu kai n victor came to mos n look fer the gers la.. dey were makin sho muchie noise n lyk calli ask cornie to fake cry to keep dem quiet.. lol.. poor song lei.. he din do aniting n den we lyk blame him tt he made cornie cry... he was gg:' wad? wad? wads wrong... wen to buy orange juice...' =P
out of no where, my mum came..... i tot lyk hu was pullin my ear... wen i turned.. haiz.. it was her.. *puke puke* kao la she... wan to ma lu mi onli... den was tokin crap again.... sighz... wen was almost time fer mi to go hm.. i called her n asked if i could stay till 5.45.. den she was startin her crap again... o ya, i knew tt she'll ask hu is tt guy nxt to mi..? i told her tt it was my frend's cousin... haha.. wen it was not..
lame la.. but wad to do... if i say:' oh! hes my kor..' i kana slap wen i get hm manz..
lotsa tingz were gg on at mos burger.. we were luffin, makin so much noise.. but it was the guys la.. not our business.. :p we were doin our wk wen my kor was so sianz.. cuz nth to do.. hes xamz ova le.. but wen i noticed tt he sianz.. den i tok to him lo.. if not i ask him cum for wad.. jus sit dere n stone..?? hehe.. no offence kor!
it was almost time le.. so, i suggested if wanna go.. so, everyone said ok.. packed up, said our gdbyes n go hm! tts the end of the dae... s in.. outin..? lol
todaes paper.... *sighz* tink im gonna die le.. leave out a 5 mark ques!!! haiya.. wadeva la... full of crap.. worse still.. a 5 mark ques, i write more den a 8 mark one.. wow.. i best man! lol.. lame.. but nvm song lei n bryant more lame.. hehe.. bleah~
awns, dedicate simple plan's perfect to u all ya... gd luck fer ur xamz!! rmb.. no one is perfect in tis world.. *winkz*
SIMPLE PLAN
"Perfect"
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurst when you disapprove all doing
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
'Cuz you don't understand
aliLOVESyou
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
okie.. todae had literature.. *screwed* had 2 hrs to do it... tink i failed it... manz.. cuz my lit sux... *sighz* even if i pass for common test, itz onli jus a passin mark.. tml.. worse.. itz history.. o manz... history sux lo.. kaoz~ my history oso suck...
wadeva.. i suck anws... so ya.. haiz... i've got nth to type le... so i guess.... later! muackz ppl!
aliLOVESyou
Monday, October 13, 2003
*sigh of relief* had sci n chi paper 1 todae.. was quite ok ba... chi was ok.. sci.. ermz.... tink i die le.. sighz.. dunno how ta do quite a number of ques.. shit.. haiz.. *fingers crossed*
sighz.. haf ta change the tag board liaoz.. so ma fan... haiya, wad ta do... trial period o short!!!! y cant let it b for one more year or sth..? hehe.. one more year..? ppl tink i crazy ar.. ok, wadeva.. im oreadi crazy.. so.... ya... bleah~
hiaz... so sianx.. nth ta do.. dun feel lyk studyin.. kaox~ history sux, lit sux, chi... nah, doesnt realli suck.. wad else ar..? eng ova liaoz.. sci oso ova.. ermz.. o d&t.. nah, cant b bothered.. but it oso sux so ya... hmm... o ya! how can i 4get.. maths.. so-so.. den, mei you le.. yay!! but so wad..? dun even noe if i can get outta da hse... *sighz*
o well.. nth to type.. so i guess.... chao!
p.s. gd luck everyone for ur xamz!!! +muackz+ takkare!
aliLOVESyou
Sunday, October 12, 2003
countdwn to xamz:1 dae!!
ok.. woke up at abt 11 sth todae but wen bak to slp again.. cuz was damn tired.. in the end woke up at 1 or 2 plus.. nxt ting i did was study study study... sighz.. sci sux.. sho mani chapters ta learn..!!! wonder if i can make it or not..
seriously, im not prepared for tis years' xamz at all.. im jus takin it ez.. guo yi tian, suan yi tian.. sum more im still gg out later.. kao~ gg to mu uncle's hse.. sighz.. cant i not go?
y mus i go...?? feelin so stressed up n depressed..
haiz... mi got nth to typie liaoz... so i guess... later..
p.s. ppl. pls study hard for ur xamz ya.. dun b lyk mi, still lazin ard, takin it ez.. but im workin on it le.. so ya.. anws, gd luck ofr ur xamz n god bless!! muackz!
aliLOVESyou
Saturday, October 11, 2003
countdwn to xamz:2 daes
did nth much todae.. sigh.. xamz on mon le.. sum more two subjects on a dae.. sci n chinese paper 1.. i havent finish studyin sci.. deres jus too much to learn.. sighz... wtf.. the stupid computer wanna drive mi nutz manz...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i finish typin my entry n dey gif mi a error tingy up askin mi to restart the bloody mircosoft internet xplorer... f**k la.. n i havent publish my entry yet!!! liew~
sighz. anws, deres nth much ta sae anws.. jus feelin so stressed up n depressed... so.. wadeva.. dedicate dido's white flag to u peeps.. gd luck for ur xamz n god bless ya! muackz!!
dido: white flag
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
aliLOVESyou
Friday, October 10, 2003
countdwn to xamz:3 daes
its gettin nearer n nearer to xamz.. sighz.. n my blog is drivin mi crazy... sighz... the template got prob!!!! gif mi blank one again... shit it!!! but wadeva.. will turn bak to normal again later...
deres so much to learn for sci.. n our tcher told us onli todae wad chapters to learn wen our xamz for sci is on mon!! kao~ sum more haf to learn sec 1 n sec 2 tx bk.. haiz... wtf...
im feelin so tired... how can i start my revision...??? sighz.. nvm, guess i'll jus haf ta hang on..
im such a weirdo.. deres so much ta do n im still here... online, typin my blog blah blah blah... but...... im not the onli one doin tt.. so.. wadeva.. not in the mood to do aniting... sighz.. sumone help mi pls???? b4 i fail n retain in sec 1 or mayb even get kicked out..? guess no one will help mi.. cuz i haf to help myself..
deres nth muchie to type oreadi... so i guess... later...
*its jus another dae which i can step n go*
aliLOVESyou
Thursday, October 09, 2003
countdwn to xamz:4 daes
ok.. tis computer is drivin mi nuts!! y cant it let mi do my tings??? fuck tis ting!! okok.. i'll calm dwn.. anws, did sth kinda stewpid todae.. i tied my hair into 2 pony talis.. but thoma was the one hu started it 1st.. she waned to re-tie my hair.. so ok, i let her re-tie.. but din expect her to tie 2.. but she tie so high.. of cuz i took it off n re-tie it lower.. wen my other frendz saw mi, dey were gg:" alicia.. u look so cute!" which is so not true... bleah~
sighz.. haf to copy the whole of chap. 13 frm tx bk 2!! kao~ copy until hand pain.. manz... so much to copy!!!! ms teow so mean!! i nv bring onli ma.. but of cuz im not the onli one la.. almost all of our tchers r upset wif us.. esp. ms chong..
kk, i gtg oreadi.. so, gd luck ppl n do ur best!
BLUE
"Guilty"
[VS 1 - (DUNCAN)]
I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty
[VS2 - (SIMON)]
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - [LEE])
I never wanted to live a lie
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty
[BRIDGE - (ANTONY)]
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty
[OUTRO]
What am I supposed to do [Duncan]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
All I wanna do is speak my mind [All]
Gulity [Lee]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
I'm prepared to testify [Duncan]
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside [Lee]
If loving you with all my hearts a crime [All]
I'm Guilty [Duncan]
aliLOVESyou
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
countdwn to xamz:5 days
kk.. xamz gettin nearer n nearer.. but... sheesh i heaven realli started on my revision yet.. haiz.. aft tis, im gg to revise liaoz.. if not, my naggy mum will come n make mi deaf again.. sigh...
i almost cried todae.. for no reason.. jus feel kinda sad.. i've got the mood swings.. in the morning, still happy-go-lucky.. later in the aftn, dunno y, i jus felt depressed n sad n jus wanna col( cry out loud).. but of cuz i din la.. dun wanna make everyone askin y? wad happened to mi.. wen mi myself dun haf the ans to it..
anws, i beta go liaoz.. b4 my naggy mum come n make mi xtra deaf.. chao..
p.s. gd luck in ur xamz! +muackz+
*its jus another dae which i can step n go..*
aliLOVESyou
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
ah.. another dae's gone.. countdown to xamz:6 more daes... s it gets nearer, i get depressed.. n the more i feel lyk cryin... i oso dunno y.. y is it tt everyone can concentrate on their studies while i cant... the feelin sux so much.. im cryin so hard now.. dunno y i jus feel so sad.. ova wad i dunno.. sighz.. i feel so pain inside... i jus cant take it animore... haiz.. but wadeva.. no one cares aniway... hu is so free to care abt mi..? everyone got their own probz..sighz.. im jus another person on the 'unwanted' list.. sighz.. wadeva la... jus let mi go... let mi go to a place where deres no such ting s xamz.. no such ting s problemz... jus freedom or wad so eva.. a place where no one will bother abt mi.. ah.. how wonderful can tt b... n i tink i noe tt place.. it is my so-called heaven.. haiz.. no one can understand mi.. i mean my parents dun even understand mi, how can other ppl do..? n all my mother noes is to nag n nag n nag..im feelin so stressed up already n dere she is addin to it.. sighz.. how i wish she can jus stop it for a dae.. i dun ask for much.. onli 1 dae..
cry cry cry.. all i noe is cry.. haiz.. sumtimes, i feel tt cryin make mi feel even more lousy.. make mi feel more pain.. it increases the pain tt i oreadi haf inside..
die die die.. everyone wants to die.. i oso wanna die.. but... how shd i die...? by cuttin myself or wad...? i dunno.. sighz... dun wish to type liaoz... later..
*cLu3leSs* Wish.To.Seek.My.Own.Heaven*alicia*
aliLOVESyou
Monday, October 06, 2003
i was dozin off in claz todae.. manz.. was so tired.. sighz.. yst wen to suntec for tis tingy.. dun no wads it called.. teehee.. aft tt wen to auntie's hse to celebrate mi cousin's b'dae wif out ani plannin.. was a surprise ting.. but we did inform my auntie 1st though.. we bought a mango cake for the b'dae gal n ermz.. ya, celebrate her b'dae wif her.. o ya, we s in mi, my family n relativies..
haiya... nth to write againz.. well, i'll jus type a poem frm the chicken soup bk.. enjoy!!
Confused
my knees start to shake,
when ur in sight.
my mind is filled wif wonder,
my heart wif fright.
wen will tis feelin stop?
wen did it start?
how can i listen to my mind,
wifout breakin my heart?
im so confused.
wad shd i do?
i cant tink of aniting,
except u.
shd i ignore u,
or jus gif it time?
i cant tink straight,
my heart controls my mind.
aliLOVESyou
Saturday, October 04, 2003
ah.. last dae for maths tuition todae.. yeah!! but im not tt hapi abt it actually... cuz it means i cant go out n haf to b jailed up at hm!!!! sighz.. wtf... aft tuition, wen for dnr wif my family n grandma... wen to the s11 at.... dunno where... haha... i go where i oso dun noe sia... listenin to pan wei bo's how r u... sho nice.. the song.. hehez..
anws, tml oso the last dae for my chi n sci tuition... yeah!! no need to wake up early.. ah, wadeva la... xamz r nearin n i cant b bothered wif it!!!! sighz.. wth la...
im gg to buy jj's cd tml... todae had no time to go n buy.. haiz.. tml mum n relatives gg to suntec... i dun feel lyk gg manz... sigh...
*yawnz* feelin so tired... but dun feel lyk slpin manz.. o ya... i wanna type tis story frm chicken soup.. vr nice.. kk, u all enjoy..
Starlight, Star Bright
When i was five years old, i took an extreme likin to my sister's toys. It made little difference tt i had a trunk overflowin with dolls n toys of my own. her "big gal" treasures were much easier to break, n much more appealing. likewise, wen i was ten n she was slowly being permitted to experiment wif held my attention, while my former obsession wif catchin bugs seemed to b a distant n fadin memory.
It was a trend tt continued year by year n, except for a few bruises n threats of terrifying "haircuts" while i was slpin, one tt my sis handled wif tolerance. my mother continually reminded her, s i entered junior high wearin her new hair clips, tt it was actually a compliment to her sense of style. she told her, s i started my 1st dae of high sch wearing her clothes, tt 1 dae she would luff n remind mi of how she was always the cooler of the two of us.
i had always tot tt my sis had gd taste, but nv more den wen she started bringin hm guys. i had a constant parade of 16 year old boys gg through my hse, stuffin themselves wif food in the kitchen, or playin bball on the driveway.
i had recently become vr aware tt boys, in fact, weren't s "icky" s i had previously tot, n tt mayb their cooties weren't such terrible ting to catch aft all. but the freshman guys hu were my age, whom i had spent mths giggling ova at football games wif my frendz, suddenly seemed so young. dey couldnt drive n dey din wear varsity jackets. my sis's frendz were tall, dey were funni, n even though my sis was persistent in gettin rid of mi quickly, dey were always nice to me s she pushed mi out of the door.
every once in a while i would luck out, n dey would stop by wen she wasnt hm. one particular would haf long conversations wif mi b4 leavin to do wadeva 16 year old boys did( it was still a mystery to me). he toked to mi s he toked to everyone else, not lyk a kid, not lyk his frendz little sis... n always hugged mi gd-bye b4 he left.
it wasnt surprisin tt b4 long i was positively giddy abt him. my frendz told mi i had no chance wif a junior. my sis looked concerned for my potenially broken heart. but u cant help hu it is tt u fall in love wif, whether dey r older or younger, taller or shorter, completely opposite or jus lyk u. emotion ran mi ovalyk a Mack truck wen i was wif him, n i knew tt it was too late to try to b sensible-- i was in love.
it did not mean i din realize the possibility of being rejected. i knew tt i was takin a big chance wif my feelings n pride. if i din gif him my heart dere was no possibility tt he would break it... but dere was oso no chance tt he might not.
one nite b4 he left, we sat on my front porch talkin n lookin for stars s dey became visible. he looked at mi quite seriously n asked mi if i believed in wishin on stars. surprised, but jus s serious, i told him i had nv tried.
"well, den its time u start," he said, n pointed to the sky. "pick one out n wish for wadeva u wan the most." i looked n picked out the brightest star i could find. i squeezed my eyes shut n wif wad felt lyk an entire colony of butterflies in my stomach, i wished for courage. i opened my eyes n saw him smilin s he watched my tremendous wishin effort. he asked wad i had wished for, n wen i replied, he looked puzzled. " courage? for wad?" he questioned.
i took one last deep breath n replied, " to do tis." n i kissed him-- all driver's-license-holdin, varsity-jacket-wearing, 16 years of hi. it was bravery i din know i had, strength i owed completely to my heart, which gave up on my mind n took ova.
wen i pulled bak, i saw the astonished look in his face, a look tt turned into a smile n den laughter. aft searchin for sth to sayfor wad seemed to me lyk hours, he took my hand n said, "well, i guess we're lucky tonite. both our wishes came true."
aliLOVESyou
Friday, October 03, 2003
haiz... now clearin up the mess of my bloggy.. so ma fan sia...!!! haiya... anws, xamz r nearin n i dun gif a damn... so... ya.. wadeva la.. vanessa lost her wallet yst n was lyk actin dao to mrs tan.. ask her ques, dun wanna ans.. liew.. her attitude stinkz lo.. jus lyk wad happened todae... mrs tan asked if she found her wallet, act dao again, nv say aniting.. den was lyk playin wif her mouth.. sighz... wad a gal we haf in our claz... haha.. wadeva..
o ya, bought a bear for $10.. its x but for the sch tingy.. nvm la.. anws, the bear oso so cuteee.. wearin our sch PE attire.. hmm, gg to put anklet for it.. hahas..
ok, todaes gg to b short.. so.. ya..
anws, i gtg do sth le.. so.... later! muackz!! anws, song for u ppl.. enjoy!!
BLUE
"Guilty"
[VS 1 - (DUNCAN)]
I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty
[VS2 - (SIMON)]
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - [LEE])
I never wanted to live a lie
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty
[BRIDGE - (ANTONY)]
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty
[OUTRO]
What am I supposed to do [Duncan]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
All I wanna do is speak my mind [All]
Gulity [Lee]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
I'm prepared to testify [Duncan]
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside [Lee]
If loving you with all my hearts a crime [All]
I'm Guilty [Duncan]
aliLOVESyou
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
yoz!! nv typee my bloggy for 2 daes le.. haiz.. so sad manz.. yst kana scoldin by my father... haiz.. i cried so hard... sob sob... wadeva la.. i oso dun lykie my whole family.. so ya.. feel so sickie n tired of my life!!!! i wanna let go... sighz.. anws, todae had 'votin' for sch prefects.. one of the candidates was me.. n i wrote tis abt myself: not cut out to be a prefect.. haha.. wadeva sia..
was so tired todae in sch... haiz.. me haf to go offline in 6 mintues time... heez, mi blog got music liaoz.. actually wanted to put P.I.M.P. but den, dey din lyk keep the word "bitch" n "motherf**kin" out.. so, din put the song.. so, now my song is 98 degrees, my everything.. enjoy ar.. hope u all lyk it ya.. or mayb im gg to put another song.. but c haf 1st not.. if dun haf, den too bad for mi lorz..
wen to 'study' wif mel kong, thoma n connie.. lol.. din study at all in the end.. haiz.. but nvm la... din felt lyk studyin anws.. den saw petrina playin bball...
anws, gtg le.. byez....!!!!!!
aliLOVESyou
